I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

Have you ever felt that your entire self wasn't being appreciated?
Have you ever woke up feeling disgusted with yourself for loving someone way too much when on the other hands, you are doubting her/his love for you?
Have you ever felt that you were too kind to your other part that he/she is taking things for granted?
Have you ever felt so fed up with your other half that you want to end things with him/her but it never happened cause you love them too much and afraid of letting go?

Well, these are the feelings bottled up in me for years.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
3:24 PM

I am back from the world of laziness.

It's not that I don't have the time to update. But, I am plain lazy.
Many things happened in life that taught me to be a better person in whole.
Dad recently got his prostatic right leg. He's not happy with it as he claimed that wearing it is painful. Some people around me are complaining about their life.
Well, my dad isn't working and for now, my mum and myself are the main sole breadwinner. Sometimes, we need to be contented with what we have. Always remember, if you think you are unfortunate, there are someone more unfortunate than you.

I love my mum. She's a great woman. When my dad got the news that he's leg had to be amputated for the second time, he broke down into tears. Never in my whole twenty years have I seen my dad cried. To my surprise, mum stayed strong and supported him by giving him constant encouragement, repeteadly saying "it's okey". If it's me in her shoes, I will break down as well. Then, when my dad was discharged and allowed to stay at home, my mum nursed and took care of him. Under pressure and great stress, dad always scolded mum, me and my other siblings. The stress level I had that time was unbearable that I broke down and complained to my mum. I had no one except for my mum that time. Friends? I don't know where all of them were. Boyfriend? Out of my thinking box. Mum did not even complained a single minor thing. I want to be like this strong woman.

I am glad that sweetheart is back from his four months deployment in Gulf of Aden. I am more contented that my prayers were finally answered. This man really changed for the better. Frankly speaking, I thought of leaving him when he's away (I know this sounds bitchy). Close friends who understands my situation have been telling me to settle down with someone better. Well, after a few thoughts and flashbacks on how he treated me, I decided to put a stop to everything. But, alhamdulillah, when he comes back, he really showed me that he's worth that another chance. Now, I am in love with this man all over again. We did alot of catching up and of course, satisfying cravings :)

And also, the craving to soak under the sun...

Happy Ramadhan to all the muslims (:

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
10:58 PM