I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Finally, I've graduated. Congratulation to the Class of 2009, School of Chemical and Life Sciences (Diploma in Chemical and Pharmaceutical Technology) . I struggled my way through for the past three years and now it's over. I don't have to memorise PFD, understanding how the reactor system behaves, do calculations for distillation columns and some other equipments, sweating my ass off climbing columns just to record the pressure of the reactants.

But, I will miss going to lectures and tutorials, eating from the school canteen food, criticizing the weird lecturers fashion sense, skipping lectures, doing lab reports, getting nervous over a presentation, sleeping in the train after such a long tiring day and mostly, I am going to miss Salma. During my poly years, she's the only one who I stick and depend on as my listening ears.

Here are just some photos..

My mother is my pillar of strength and she's the reason for every success I taste.

I gonna miss boxing Shahfiq in the lift. I gonna miss putting water balloon on Suren's bag. Well, my class know me as someone mischievous, funny and up to many things haha.

Lastly, some changes on image. I miss the curls but it's bugging me in the sense that it's too dry with split ends.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
12:07 AM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Forced myself to wake up at 6am today to accompany mum and sister to Raffles convention Center for the MDIS scholarship and bursaries award ceremony.
Bought mum the new arrival crocs for her belated mother's day cum birthday gift.
Bought sister her hoodie.
Bought nothing for myself.

I got so many things in mind:

- Get a big Charles and Keith handbag for myself
- Get my hair straight
- Buy myself two dresses
- Dinner treat for mummy, mama and papa
- Car do for sweetheart once he return as a belated birthday gift
- Fish spa and shopping spree with Kak Aidah and Kak Didi

Shit. If only I am a tai tai...
Any businessman wants to make me as their tai tai girlfriend?!
lol

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
12:29 AM

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I asked myself, are you worth waiting for?

Gosh I hate the fact that I strongly want to call it over.

BUT, once it's over, I am the one who will cry for you back.

HOOKED.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:16 PM

Saturday, May 09, 2009

I thought I am strong.
But now, I see the world came tumbling down after me.

Boyfriends are there. But friends are the one who are true.

Laila, Please take me to Cambodia? The hot burning sun doesn't matter and is nothing compared to this burning pain in my hear. haiz.

I want it over, but HOW? Ya Allah tell me how?

It's so impossible. But I know it's possible. Why do I need to love that boy so much when all he cares is family, career, prospects and car?

Four months away from each other. With no source of connections to reach through him. HE BLOODY GIVE ME TWO FUCKING MISS CALLS JUST NOW AND I FUCKING DIDN'T HEAR IT. I was praying hard that he would call again. But he doesn't! I can't even call back!

FUCK FUCK FUCK. I REALLY HATE THIS AND CANNOT TOLERATE THIS ANY FURTHER!

I REGRET TO BE WITH A SOLDIERRRRRRRRRRR. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. FUCKING REGRET.

SUCK BALLS.

Tell me, do I deserve this kind of life? I AM FUCKING SICK OF LIFE.

HATE IT.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK #%#$#%#$#$#%@#$

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
1:27 AM

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Basically, I got nothing to do since I have finished my school work.

So, I tried this particular website which enables you to see how your future baby will look like with whoever partner you choose. LOL.

Then, I tried on different celebreties ahahahahaha. Cool uh.

So, firstly, I tried with Zac Effron, my all time sexy man LOL.

Not bad, right? I guess Zac's is a good material for making baby LOL

Secondly, I tried... Adam Brody :)

LOL. I am confused if this is a baby boy or baby girl hahahaha.

Thirdly, I tried... Brad Pitt! lol

I think this hot man only makes cute babies with Angelina. Look at that baby face! It looks like an old man to me!

Then, I tried to match the lady which sweetheart envy lol. That is, Eva Mendes.

LOL. Not so bad, heh? Their baby looks like Pikachu, from the Pokemon series lol.

Okey, lastly, I tried to put sweetheart and my picture together. It turns out to be...

Errrrrrrrrrrrr..... No comments. This girl has minah-looking eyebrows lol.

Ultimately, I will just want a healthy bouncing baby in future :)
Amin.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
8:52 PM

This feeling is TERRIBLY TERRIBLE.
I am waiting... and waiting... and waiting.
It seems forever!
Okey, why am I complaining when I am the one who choose this path when cleary there are different paths for me?
Oh my God... Can't help it.
But it takes forever to wait for August.
I am simply working my ass off on weekdays and weekends, I will just rot at home.
I am trying had, realllly realllllly hard to live with it. But it's killing me man!

OMG. If I ever broke up, my husband to be MUST NOT BE A SOLDIER, i tell you.

*Pain in the ass feeling*

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
2:15 AM