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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Gaga

Ops. i am down with stress syndrome. i am one hell of a stressed maniac who is down with stress and more stress. i really regret taking this course. i guess, mom's right. nyp is too far for me. heeh. didn't listen to her and go my own way. nyeh. what to do? things already happened.. then let it be larh. hahas. so, i am down with stress as i say again. i will be having my inorganic and physical chemistry test this friday. 2 more days left. stress! But i am the type who goes, " oh man, damn shit ass, i left with two more days to my exam and i haven't study a single thing! shit dumb ass! " and yet, i won't do anything about it. lols. i will do last minute thing. since primary school i've been doing that. haahs. stupid ass.

So, basically, today, meet my darling, farah and went to town. lady's out. haha. gave her a treat, ljs. yummy. our all time favourite piggy dish. we ate till we burped. lols. then, went to bugis street. intially, my intention is just to buy a formal wear for my project presentation. but, it ends up on me, spending around $50 today. haahs. i love to spent. and i really mean LOVE! muahahaha. bought a jeans which cost $34 and a top which cost only $10. oh and yarh, please scold me for buih-ing one sales assistant down there. lols. i tried on this really nice top. it cost... $28. i asked if i could use card, and she replied no. haha. she's nice larh actually. i bargained for the price to drop a bit. she says.. no. haha. But, she's still nice larh to me. hahaha. then i say, " erms, but i am using atm card larh" she offered to accompany me to the atm machine near cheers. i rejected and say, " Nvm, i will go there on my own and later come back to buy that top ". she smiled and beamed with joy. muahahas. but than, as i say, scold me for buih-ing her. hahahaha. i didn't even come near the shop. cabut arh.. hahas.

Oh okay. yesterday calculus maths is okay. except for my stupid dumb asshole fcuking carelessness larh. i went to the lecture theatre late by 5 min and everyone has already started doing. i panicked and didn't read the instructions. i did all the 10 questions... with question 2 and 3 half way done cause i didn't know how to solve the question. but, the last 3rd and 4th question.. i am able to do the whole question. it was chicken feet! nyahaha. jk jk. but, that fcuking mr kuan koh won't mark that. he will mark the first 6 questions as the paper states, " DO ONLY 6 QUESTIONS". cibai sia. fcuking cibai. i gonna flung this test like this! stupid ass. the chemical engineering principles is a piece of shit. i will fail the test wilth flying colours. nyahahaha. stupid ass. cb cb cb.

ps. sorry if this entry has too much vulgarities
and i laughed too much. nyahahaha!
oh btw, dearest farah, thanks for teman-ing me today heh.
i enjoyed everything!
you're my superwomen. muahahahs!
oh okok. buybuys!

sincerely,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:24 PM

Saturday, June 24, 2006

iLOVEhim.

A short entry for today:

My heavy eyes didn't stop me from enjoying every moment with d. slept at 5 am yesterday, studying and brain cracking. meet him at city hall at 12 pm but, had to wait for him for 40 mins as his late. haahs. then, we went straight to marina and played pool. that's my first time playing. haahs. he's a good teacher indeed and a good pool player for me. hee. after getting bored over playing pool, we walked around the mall as he's finding this adidas thights for his physical training and morning jogs. hee. then, we went to esplanade and just laze around there. told him all my problems and indeed, his a good shoulder to cry on. haahs. thank you darling. after that, we went to the cinema and catched a movie, x-men. quite an interesting movie. mutants. then, went to orchard, heeren.. and bought me a pair of white Brazilliano Praia. it cost $49.90. haahs. he says it's for a belated birthday present. haahs. thank you d! (: syg you many many. lastly, we went to j.p banquet and had our dinner.we did some planning for the period after four years from now. haahs. happily married with 3 beautiful kids. gonna meet his parents next week and he's gonna meet mine in time to come. haha.serious business this time. then, he sent me back home, safe and sound. ((:
ok, i got to study for my exam now. haahs. buys!

much love,
umairah.
alfian, syg u many many. weee.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
10:52 PM

Friday, June 23, 2006

Boredom- stricken

I feel like posting an entry which is a random feeling i ever have. haahs. make this a short entry:

Woke up very late today. 12pm. thanks to all the chatting i did yesterday till 3 am. haahs. really exhausted from all the studying and brain cracking i had. i still got 3 more topics to cover for my calculus maths. haven't even start my inorganic chemistry revisions. semestral project is not even half way complete. haven't even typed out the whole resume for comm skill. studying for chemical engineering principles and material science is a far cry. and i got only... less than 3 days to do all this. haha. i am a dead goose already. better dig my own grave to get ready. haahs. i got many things to think about actually. now, i always suffer from migraine which is killing me. it's damn painful that even crazy pigs can't stand it. hahaha. going to cabut from work larh tmrw and sunday. i got to finish my work first. mom always say, " get your diploma first, then you can think about working ". haahs. i love mom. going to meet redzuan at 8 today for a jog. then, got to settle some stuffs- projects, assignments, resumes. brain cracker! fcuk you!
oh okay, got to go.... library and study on my own. (:

Specially to my special friend,
deep in my heart.

Dearest _______,
i know u're suffering deep inside even when u're smiling. i know u're crying inside though u're laughing. maybe, u must be thinking, God is unfair to you. but, remember, whatever happen in your life, there's a reason behind it. you may suffer now, but, you can't uncover the rest of the chapters in your life. be strong my girlfriend. be really strong. if you feel weak one day and just feel like breaking down, remember, i am always here. i will try to be your strength for you to continue your life. i believe, one day, God will open your parents eyes and they will soon realise, which child of theirs is the glass and which is the gold. always remember, God is always with you whenever you go. . . i sayang you many many (:
God Bless You child.

much love,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
2:10 PM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Tag or Treat!

Tagged By Hanisah.

7 stuffs you want to know about me:

1. I don't eat peanuts.
2. I don't eat instant noodles of ALL brands. rot my tongue.
3. I don't drink coffee, tea and milk.
4. I hate macaronies.
5. I love yan yan. they make my tummy go weeee! (:
6. I HATE gassy drinks especially coke.
7. I get pissed off by words really easily. and i mean really easily.

7 things that scares me:

1. God
2. Failing exams
3. Creepy crawlies
4. Dark
5. Heights
6. Father's caning
7. D's naggings

7 random music that i am listening to:

1. Unfaithful- Rihanna
2. Car Ride Home- Audio Karate
3. Scummy- Arctic Monkeys
4. Modern Morbid Prophecies- Dead Poetic
5. Pretty Girl- Sugarcult
6. Goodbye My Darling- Enblessin
7. Here without you- 3 Doors Down

7 things i said most:

1. Gila seh
2. Pergi mampus
3. Shuddup larh you
4. You talk like a bimbo
5. Selenge larh you
6. Hello
7. Rubbish

7 people whom i want them to write:

1. Zulhilmi
2. Fardly
3. Hidayu
4. Erika
5. Redzuan
6. Yazid
7. Fatin

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
1:35 AM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

FUNtastic.

Slept at 4am yesterday and woke up at 10 am today. showered, and get dressed. meet up with farah and ayn later and made our way to bugis. ayn and farah was quite pissed off with me i think when i told them that i have to get back to school at 6 pm because i got to complete my project. haahs. sorry darlings! really missed you guys sehs (: so, we talked about any topics under the sun like we usually do last time. went around bugis and bought a black shirt which is cute. (: , two pairs of ear rings and a bracelet which three of us bought the same one. $2 ajerh tau. nice one. cheap cheapp (: then, made our way to nyp to meet aby, che and salma. erms, actually, they just wanted to pass me my belated birthday present. aby bought this cute present for me... yan yan! yummy! * grins* 10 of them vanilla flavour. just what i like. hahaha.

Then, went to far east and got ourselves lunch at cahaya restaurant. the nasi ayam there is finger licking good seh. haha. worth my $3! it's a heartening meal indeed. next, sent ayn to the mrt station as she has to get home early today. then, wondered around with farah till larh we both get mendak and later went home. farah, wait i blanja you bubble tea okay sayang? hahaha.

Oh, and yarh, yesterday was my Birthday! Happy Birthday to me! it was indeed a fcuked up one. i spent my whole birthday in NP library, studying with hidayu. NO presents, NO birthday cake but LOTS of birthday wishes. *grins* my bro is real sweet. he played me a birthday song from the computer which he dwnld from a website. it's touching. then, one by one msged me, wishing Happy Birthday. then, D called me at 12 am and wished me with his blessings. haahs. sweet larh you. i love you. later talked to him until my eyes get heavy. okay larh. then tidur! nite.

much love,
umairah

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:50 AM

Sunday, June 18, 2006

HAPPYburfdae.

I enjoy today to every bits. went out to meet nisah and her guy, shafizah and her guy. then, we went ice skating. i didn't really ice skate since i injured my right leg from the last hockey practice. sheesh. nisah paid for the entry fee and i only have to pay for the lockers which cost only $2. haahs. i appreciate it loads darling. nisah, lipen and shafizah try to persuade me not to leave at 1.15pm cause there's a surprise to be revealed later at west coast park. but, i can't make it. i had promised d to meet him today for my advance birthday celebration since he has to go back to camp on weekends. what totally touches my heart is that, when i was about to leave, nisah, lipen and shafizah sing me a birthday song! then, nisah and shafizah handed me their own designed birthday card with a sweet friendship dedication inside. they took 5 hours to do it for me. i LOVE the card darlings! they are so gorgeous ( : i don't know both of you can do designing. haha. before i went out from the ice skating place, i give nisah and shafizah a warm big hug. haha. kissed nisah! she cried larhs. i hold back my tears and quickly got out from the place. no one has ever done this for me.. and when it happens, it's gotta touched your heart. oh and yarh, i got to know, they actually bought a cake which should be cut at wcp. haha. yummy. but, i don't get to taste it since i left earlier. THANK YOU HANISAH AND SHAFIZAH FOR THE WONDERFUL MOMENT YOU GUYS HAS DONE FOR ME. <3

Then, made my way from j.e to plaza singapura to meet d. rambut pekan seh d. hahas. we were laughing and laughing our heads out while making our way from p.s to marina which is quite a long walk. catch a movie- silence hill. the movie is at least better than the previous movie i watch, The Omen. but, the ghosts or monsters in the movie look like maggots ajer. cb sia. lols. i don't quite understand the ending larhs. then, both stomach grumbling grumbling... went to pizza hut and ordered couple delight's meal, consisting of seafood pizza, muchroom soup, drinks. added lasagne and chocolate symphony as dessert. oh and yarh, i changed my coke to ice lemon tea as usual as i don't take in gassy drinks. when i drank the drink, it taste real awful, like without sugar siaks! it taste totally disgusting. anyhow, i just drank it till quarter empty coz i was too thirsty. then, d saw and passed me this white little so called teapot, with white liquid in it. he tasted it, and realised that it is the sweeterner for the ice lemon tea! cb sia. lols. so slenge of me. haha. i just ate 3 slices of pizza. d finish the rest of the food. lols. so much for a flat abs tummy of his... but eat like an oink oink. hahas. takmo marah d. then, we walk to the esplanade and killed our time till 10 pm there by chit chatting. he told me about his plan to go to timor leste to sign on and brunei, for 6 months. after that, he say, he gonna be a rich man. lols. though i am sad, but, i am still happy for him ( :
THANKS FOR THE TREAT D. I APPRECIATE IT LOADS.

Total amount i spent today= $2.00. (:

shit larh. tmrw have to meet suren to complete the semestral project. what the hell. haiz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIPEN!

much love,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:50 PM

Saturday, June 17, 2006

COCK up.

Today sucks like hell. went to t.p to start my work. with this relucatant feeling, i step into apex tower and breathe in real deep. look for hanis... but she's not there. then, this guy asked me to wait and he bring me to the corridor where the other collugues were waiting patiently for the next thing to happen. from there, i already know that i am just wasting my time over there. firstly, each of us were asked to give a self- introduction: khai, harry, wan, _______. the rest i forget. haahs. i felt really funny when they asked really personal question about ourself like.. are you attached or single and things like that.

I can still remember what the supervisor asked this guy:
Supervisor: Do you have any gf?
____: Yes.
Supervisor: How long have you been with her?
____: Ard 1 and a half year.
Supervisor: Which body part of your gf do you like most?
____: Butt larh.
Supervisor: Why butt?
____: Pantat dier power larh. besar!
Supervisor: (laughing) In the 1+ years with her, what's the most daring thing both of you ever done?
____: We went up the block.
Supervisor: ( shock and grin) What you all do there?
____: Apa lagi, main larh!

* All laughed including myself though i find it quite an insesitive issue to discuss. He talked so funny because that guy is botak with his teeth coming out like a rabbit. and.... he's r is berkarat! lols. i can't stop laughing.

Oh and yarh! one more ridiculous question the supervisor asked me.
Question: Imagine it's the end of the world. there's only 5 guys and left you, the only girl, in this world still surviving. reproduction has to be done fast. which of the 5 guys will you choose to make baby with? then, he points to 5 guys which is exactly sitting circulating him. my head spinned and i just choose this guy with brown shirt. then, the supervisor asked that guy to speak up. skali, his vocie is like.... minnie mouse! gosh! i think my voice is more rough than his sia. his is like... a little girl. lols. he just say, " kalau kau nak but anak dgn dia, aku rasa, dia yng terpekik dulu". cb sia. lol. then he say, the answer is.. you can choose anyone. the impact is.. reproduction has to be done a.s.a.p. thus, it's an urgent thing. so, it's a trick question to test me. hahas.
I shouldn't have wasting my time going to that bloody apex tower man. should have just work man today. nisah told me that samantha keep looking for me. but.. i thought she cancelled my schedule for today already? wtf. i gonna be in a deep deep trouble!

Then, we were sent to the meeting room where they brief us about their product which is i think.. magic pillow and matress and some other stuff. i have no interest in telemarketing! so, half way i cabut. lols. mcm sial. Then, called ayu. meet her at plaza singapura and catch a movie- The Omen. it's a stupid crap movie which is not exciting at all. it's about a stupid devil kid who kill people and stupid stuff like that. oh and yarh, his so called "father" has a HOT body! haha. oh and yarh! got this stupid couple in front of me keep french kissing and petting. they are so irritating. wasting money larh both of you. pay $9.50 for each ticket, but both of you end up, wasting time in the theatre.

Okay, have to wake up early tmrw. meeting hanisah, ed, shafizah, hafez and this two chinese frens of nisah. nisah got a surprise which is suppose to be a surprise, but ends up someone break the secret. lols. the other surprise.. ermss... i am still clueless what it is larh. then, gotta meet d. okay. tmrw gonna be my last day of slacking. next week gonna be... buybuys holiday! welcome exam stress. haish. i HATE this totally.

much love,

umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
1:40 AM

Friday, June 16, 2006

Tags

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names.No tag backs.

And i have been tagged back Redzuan!

6 weird facts about me:

1. I can twitch my ears like a rabbit. ( :
2. I don't drink gassy drinks. the gas will come out from my nose and the feeling sucks.
3. I can put my hand together and move it like a fish swimming motion.
4. I DON'T eat instant noodles and red meat. yucks!
5. I don't take in lactose.
6. I smell each potato chips before biting each of them. it's a habit.

My chosen ones:

1. Shafizah
2. Hidayu
3. Erika
4. Adit
5. Diyanah

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
1:11 PM

Thursday, June 15, 2006

EYEmo

Argh! my right eyes are now in the worse condition as it might be. Its damn fiery red and it's as painful as can be. i feel like my eyes have been poked by a fork. shit! i am so scared if there's infection! i jal told me that his friend just recovered from an eye operation due to infection from contact lens. haiz. hope it would re-cover tomorrow.

My family has just been back from pahang yesterday. was delighted seeing them safely back home. bought nothing course there's nothing interesting there. oh yarhs! they bought many many many bubble gums which amount to RM71, dodol, keropoks, fruits. the fruits there are damn cheap. since the day they went, i have to do all the house chores. but, i am used to it already. nvm. haahs.

shit. today i spent my time quite wisely. firstly, meet che and pass the birthday present to aby. then, when straight to school to complete my resume. next, meet ridhwan and he teman me go jogging. while running, i feel on my knees. it bleeds terribly but i still continued to run. haahs
thank you ridhwan! ouh and yarhs. my head is cracking from all the piling projects which were left undone and untouched. haahs. nvm nvm. i will do it tomorrow.

okay. so, tomorrow. gonna meet ridhwan to buy this stuff first. then went straight to nyp. there's hockey practice tomorrow.
actually, i got lots to update but malas larh. haahs.
nvm, i will do it when i got the mood which is... next year i think.
okay bye!

much love,
umairah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABY!

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:35 PM

Friday, June 09, 2006

BLOGGER nuts

This blogger is so stupid. this stupid blogger says " invalid whatever shit" after i click the publish post button. what the hell! waste my time! i've typed one whole lot chunk of a long entry and there it goes to waste! STUPID. make my blood boils only! grrrr. i want to bite blogger toe nails! then chipped off blogger fingernails then bite back blogger toe nails! i am angry right now okays! don't laugh! GRRRR.

A short one will do:

i am going for a job orientation today. in my formal wear, i gonna be in my best behaviour but still, i can't. haahs. shit, walking around with heels on? arghhhhh! nightmare. i will get blisters! it's a japan company. but, i won't trust that company that much though. cause, it looks quite weird larh. they only employ malays, but the managing director himself is a chinese. cannot be a prostitute brothel since there are men working there. gagaga. wish me luck people!

yesterday chemical engineering principle is a shit one larhs. i can harldy do any of the questions. i bet, i gonna score a single digit mark out of the 40 marks paper. the paper is killing everyone! its like... you look at me, i look at you- you know, that kinda paper. i did studied for the paper. but, frankly, i don't understand anything. it's tougher than a maths and its much more tougher than your brother's big muscle. (: okay, i think i gonna FAIL with flying colours larh. but, my friend copied for the paper. and i was like... w.t.f. if you don't know, than can you please just focus on your paper and be a honest bustard. after scoring that pass mark from all the copyings you did, you will give me the face and say " huh. kau fail? serious per? " fcuk you understand. you are neither clever nor intelligent. but, you are a purely making yourself look intelligent by copying those work! shit! you gonna score for your gpa and get to a university. THAT'S SO UNFAIR! go and die larhs. daaa!

invitation: Shaf, please make yourself free on monday night from 6 to 8 pm. my workplace got a night out... i am bring you and hidayu. farah and ai'in maybe going. please do come. saya rindu kamu syg. ps. free food okay. (:

i am taking japanese for my foreign language.
AliKatokYamaShita.

much love,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
1:25 PM

Sunday, June 04, 2006

I wish i may, i wish i might. have a wish, i wish tonight.

seriously, i am breaking down right now. after one problem, comes another without the first one being unsolved. i feel alone right now, without any friends by my side except for this kind soul who has been by my side since school opens. i recalled the time i said "hello, what do you want to it arh?" to her. haahs. thats so cute , right? thank you salma... i was rather pissed off when this friend of mine, refusd to teach me about y chemical engineering principle just because i called him cincaluk. i can still remember the msg he sent me, " nvm. i study on my own. u study well okay. buat sakit hati jerhs " and i was like... urgh ( can't describe that feeling). i didn't expect anything in return by teaching him some maths stuff... but, i just want to clarify with him how to do that mass flowrate thing. erms, nvm. talking about this makes my head turns more.

Another terrible thing: i fought with another friend of mine. salma told me that shes angry when i shoved her away when shes trying to calm me over that humiliation thing. i am just too angry and pissed off when she's also the one who laughed the hardest. my feeling was.. urgh. so, i am thinking of switching poly. to s.p larhs. people, pray for me okay. ( :

malas nak update lagiks. lols. tmrw got extra lesson for c.e.p. so bodohs. daaa!

much love,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:30 PM

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Possibly Deadd

1st june. a date that i'll remember till life depart from me. have you ever woke up from your beauty sleep and wish that one day, you will be perfect? i do. i always do. today was one of my worst and humiliating day of my entire life. i wished that i was way back in secondary school where life was much more pleasent, away from those wicked people. i hate myself. i hate me.

It was calculus mathematics and its MR KUAN KOH tutorial class. i was a bit frustrated before his fcuking lesson starts. my eyes irritates so much that it was red like an internal bleeding. i was scared if there's infection. thus, i removed them and i was like a blind mouse. all i see was shadows. so, went to MR KUAN KOH class and was quite happy on that time without any mood swings. but, i was totally pissed off when he humiliates me in front of my class and everybody was like laughing their lungs out loud. even my three clocest who i guess were my friends laughed. on that second, i feel my world were crashing and i feel like i am naked without any strings. i feel like i have lost my sense of dignity and i felt really humiliated. i tried to hold back my tears but it was too hard. so, i quickly packed my things and just go off from the class ignoring the people around me. all i can see was the word " embarassed ". in my whole entire life, no one has ever humiliate me in front of a crowd. true friends will know my feelings and will not pissed me off. when i thought my friends will stand by me, i was wrong. guess, i will just pretend that everything's okay and pretend to force a fake smile in front of them. i just want to be back in secondary school where my true friends can understand my sensitive feelings. i miss farah, ai'in, shiela, fatin, shafizah, erika, hidayu. those important people in my life. i hope i can bury my sorrows behind and wake up the next morning, finding myself a cinderella. i can't smile like i used to right now. after today, people will see the other side of me. i will not be the same umairah. here i come aneroxia.when i taught i has successfully put you behind, i was wrong. people make me change. people make me choose you back. i will be back to you soon... i <3 you aneroxia.

rejected his calls. his a nuisance. i just need a break up and strings will be loosen a bit. urgh, i just need some prozac and die. daa buy!

sincerely,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
9:11 PM