I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

Monday, March 23, 2009

For those kind hearted souls who have tagged me, giving me advices, deep down from the bottom of my heart, thank you to all of you. I appreciate it alot.
Just as I have thought, he would come back and he did.
And just as many close people thought, I gave in again.
For the tenth time now.
Cliche.
Last Thursday, met up with dear Salma.
Had truckloads of fun.
We do chat over in msn and talked on the phone often.
But, meeting up is still the best.

We did some catching up over at Starbucks.
I still prefer caramel frappecinno with milk base.
Working in the coffee making industry for two years somehow give me a good taste of what the drink would turn out to be haha.
Then, pooled and dinner at Breeks.
The service was super slow and atrocious.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:12 PM

Friday, March 06, 2009

Oh my...
This is not as easy as it seems.
Day time, I will immerse myself in work and trying my best to laugh at funny children.
I try my best to console myself and telling myself that I deserve better.
Somehow, work help me to move on with life. I didn't look at my hp that much to check for any missed calls or msgs from him.
But, by night, the pain haunts me.
Each night, without fail, I will cry myself to sleep.
I tried my very best not to send him any msgs. I am not chasing this fellow anymore.
All this have to be put to a stop.
Let him find me and not vice versa. I want him to learn his lesson and not taking me for granted.
Deep down inside, I still love him more than ever, no matter what shit he threw me.
sigh.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:50 AM

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Hello world.
My four years relationship has officially ended.
He initiated it. He gave me back the ring which he swears he will wear as long as we are together.
So much downs compared to ups we went through together.
It's just not worth it.
FYI, it happened seven times before.
So, this is this the eigth time.
Friends call me stupid. Everyone who reads this will also call me stupid.
Yes, I am. I am hiding under the shell, scared to break open and come out.
I am scared of changes. I am so used to his presence.
The aura will be different if he is no longer around.

BUT, I got this feeling that he will come back to me begging me to take him back.
I'm not being complacent or whatsoever over here.
Think people, think.
If it happened for seven times already,
it will be very possible that this eighth time is another false alarm right?

But, the problem is me.
I really want to break open from the shell and see what God has for me.
I really don't know if I can do it.
But, I wil try.

Insyallah...

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
8:40 PM