I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

Hello world.
My four years relationship has officially ended.
He initiated it. He gave me back the ring which he swears he will wear as long as we are together.
So much downs compared to ups we went through together.
It's just not worth it.
FYI, it happened seven times before.
So, this is this the eigth time.
Friends call me stupid. Everyone who reads this will also call me stupid.
Yes, I am. I am hiding under the shell, scared to break open and come out.
I am scared of changes. I am so used to his presence.
The aura will be different if he is no longer around.

BUT, I got this feeling that he will come back to me begging me to take him back.
I'm not being complacent or whatsoever over here.
Think people, think.
If it happened for seven times already,
it will be very possible that this eighth time is another false alarm right?

But, the problem is me.
I really want to break open from the shell and see what God has for me.
I really don't know if I can do it.
But, I wil try.

Insyallah...

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
8:40 PM