I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

If i could turn back time,
yesterday after midnight will be my pick.
i swear i could have just keep that matter to myself
& not telling you the truth
because its just some dark patches of my life.
but, i just cant because you are already part of me.
where has all the trust you have on me?
where's the old sweet you which i had a fetish for?
where's the soft spoken man i used to know last time?
it's gone.
i hope you knew what you were saying yesterday
& realised what you're doing.
you're just implying : You Don't Trust Me. enough. I had enough Bullshit.
that night, the prince of my heart has turned to a demon whom i never knew exist.
wrecked me to tears and leaving this huge scar behind.
those words of him only make me feel so demoralize
& i felt so tiny that even the ants are more respectable than me.
i am trying hard to forget that moment.
please give me some time as i burn that incident out from my soul.
The feeling is like slicing my heart through with a knife.
It will take some time to heal.
But no matter what happen,
I will never let go.
& i love you still like before, now and after.
but if you really want it,
then i will just have to do it.
But, now, once i spit, i won't lick.

Dear Allah, help me.
Give me strenght.
Show me your guidance.
Protect me from the words of the evil Satan.
Forgive all my sins.
I am just your another weak creature that you create.
Amin...

much love,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
6:16 PM