I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

I wish there's never today.
Those words which came from his mouth,
pierce through my chest,
across my heart
& plant a seed of pain all over me.
especially when he's suppose to be the closest to you
& would kiss you goodbye each night without consider it sinful.
how i just wish i am in a fairytale where everything is so sweet and ends with a happily ever after?
i am just deprived of his love.
i am too weak too even hold on to this.
all i could do was just to sit away from him for some time,
let those drops of tears roll down
& trying my best to put my heart into pieces back.
in the eyes of others,
they may think i am insane.
it's beyond my limits to cut the string between us.
because it will never be possible even if recarnation is true.
if the hero hasn't called to console
& make my heart skip a beat each time i hears him calling me,
i would have shed blood of life.
Dear Allah, my God,
is this one of the test you install for me in life?
it is like a river never ending,
a wheel which keeps spinning
& a girl who's lost in a dark forest of thorns, finding herself caught in the middle of nowhere.
nevermind.
i will just be the lady of mute in this house.
goodbye.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
8:35 PM