I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

~~I try to hold on.~~
Its tough.
Its suffering.
I cried. I bleed.
I try to deny to myself that we are perfect together.
but the reality gets real as time pass.
we've got too many differing views. too many differing goals.
the fight after fight we had, i tried to swollow.
i tried my best to be my best for you.
i swollow the pain bit by bit though its tough.
the time i shed tears in front of humanoids,
the scene we made in front of your own blood.
the words you put into my mouth which i never uttered.
i just feel like letting everything go.
everything.
the castle we built on top of the clouds together.
the cupid we drew on the sand together.
but, it seems like it is just a never come true dream.
the cloud castle is slowly dissappearing.
the cupid is slowly fading.
for now,
~~i will just be in silence...~~
waiting for you to change...
i will just hold on to your less than firm grip.
hold on...
till your plams sweat..
droplets form..
my hand is wet against yours...
& lastly until this hand of mine lose touch of yours.
then i will know its over.
i am sorry....

i will hold on to your hand & never let go no matter what happens. i promise...

ps. sorry if this entry seems useless.
but after updating this entry,
he called and in that instant,
my heart beamsss ((:
goodbye.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
4:12 PM