I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

Sigh.
i swear.
i am sick of this already.
i tried to be strong.
i tried to overcome all the diificulties we had.
i tried to forget the scar after those fights we had.
but, i think, this is getting too hard for me.
i feel like giving up.
having more than two fights a day is ridiculous.
it seems like everyday we're fighting.
i just feel that we have a communication breakdown.
we cant clique.
you and me. a far difference. like heaven and earth.
people say that we must sacrifice for love.
i did. they dont know i did.
all the heartace i faced. all the pain i get from waiting.
all the scoldings i had to bear. all the emotional breakdown that enters.
sometime i asked myself.
can i really show you that i can wait even if its ten years?
then, i will feel the guilt of saying it.
because, now, i am too weak.
i am feeling insecure.
if only you can read this & understand my feeling...
i kept everything to myself.
i really love you & cant bear letting you go.
but, i have to face the fact.
sometimes, hapiness is hard to be swollowed
bacause its heart wrenching.
Ya Allah, give me the strength to overcome this.
i know, now, all i need is your help.
your help ya Allah.
amin.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
11:38 PM