I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

i will just combine two entries into one. here goes:

Last night was the worse night ever. we fought and he actually made me cried. i was totally pissed and hurt with him. just because a tiny thing, he made sucha big fuss out of it and scolded me. when i say let's just settle this stuff when we meet tomorrow. he will shout at me and say i want to settle it by tonight. so, i just kept quiet throughout. the pain was toturing and hurting me real bad. once in a while, part of my heart wants a break up real bad but the other half says i still love him. when i try to clear his doubts, he will just keep quiet and make me feel like i am talking to the wall. once, he told me, he's a different type of guy. but, yesterday he just mention, " i think you're right. all guys the same. my attitude is turning bad and my true colours is starting to show up". oh dear God, give me the strength to overcome this...

Today goes fine. but, sweetheart was an hour late. reason given was he was caught in the rain. was quite angry actually, but i just force a fake smile when i saw him at city hall in the morning. the kiss given on the forehead cool me down quite fast. hee. oh and yarh, thanks mama pian! haha. she bought for me this formal top from U2. so good! i don't have to waste my money to buy formal wear for presentation. was about to ask him about yesterday.. why he change drastically and why he treat me like that last night but, he already ask me to forget it. reason given was he was to shag and worn out during the 4- month course. okay, i understand. so, catch a movie- nacho libre. a funny movie which tickles my buttocks. haha. but ada baby nangis inside the cinema. haha. very the irritating man. then, we had lunch at cavana. ate chicken rice with barbeque chicken. i quite don't like the food down there lar. haha nvm, thanks sweetheart for the treat anyway. later, we went to hang around outside the esplanade. oh ahhhh. it was nice. we beat each other up. i bite him and hit me back. i hit him and he bite me back. lols. then, went to yishun to send him to his camp. beforehand, hang out at burger king near there. he eat again. mcm pig heh. haha. spend near 1 hour there seh. we talk and takl an talk. then, took the cab and off to nee soon camp. then, balik rumah. home sweet home. haah. oh but then, sweetheart will not book out this saturday -_-"
haish. so, i have to wait for another 2 weeks to see his face again. army is tough. u can only meet your bf once a week. haiz. nvm. haha and yeah, he's meeting my parents to ask how much is my duit hantaran -_-" lols. he's nuts! he wants to get married after four years and have three pretty kids. haha. that will be after he gets his license and a car.
i really learnt something from him. in a relationship, you have to go through the ups and downs together. u can't only expect for the ups. surely, the downs wil also have it's fair share. so, ya Allah, please last my reationship with alfian till death do us apart. Amin. insyallah...
eh okay, tmrw ada test and havent study finish seh. haha. got to study! haahs. buhbye lovely people!

much love,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
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