I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

Been sleeping late these few days. even counting sheeps doesnt seems to work. just a short entry for today:

chemical engineering results were given just now. as i had guessed, i failed both tests. damsel in distress. i must work extra hard. so, starting from next week, school will end late for me. 9 pm. going to meet the lecturer ( care and share programme) and catch up with the topics in that module which i had long neglected. i have to pass the next test . failing exams hurts me real bad. the feeling is like i have just made a failure in life. i even thought of quitting hockey and work to concentrate more on my studies. but, i can't. i guess, i need to sacrifice on my sleeping time a bit. tues, weds and thurs: ends school at 9pm to study. -_-

i am going to miss d fuckingly bad. he's going to have his 4 months course, starting ths wednesday. we can only meet up for a short while on saturday, subsequent weeks. means.. this week meet, next week dont, this week meet, next week dont. this will go on until he ends his course. so, this saturday, yey! can meet up. haha. next week nope :( the feeling is terrible. but, he's booking out only on saturday and book in back the next morning. hahas. but, i can't be seeing him everytime he books out from camp. i can't be selfish. haha. he still have his own family to spent time with. so yarh, i wont mind if he's going out with his family or maybe i can join in. hee. (: *grins*
Oh and yarh, yesterday's fight is still on my mind though he says he has forgotten it. it stinks to know you're being similarise with your ex lover. you will feel pissed off and then you can jump down from the 12th floor and die. but i know, though he says he has forgotten about it, deep inside, he's still thinking why i dont wish to share my problem with him. one of my boy friend say that whenever his girlfrend does that to him, he will feel that the girl doesnt trust him. he's speaking from a man's point of view. so, i think he feels the same way too. so, planning to bake a cake for him this thursday. chocolate cake with nutella chocolate in the middle and the words:
S-O-R-R-Y on top of it, using icing sugar. he love chocolate. haha. hope that will make him feel better.

okay, it's already morning and i am still awake. need to wake up at 5.30am later. better get some sleep before i sleep in the next maths calculus lecture . bye!

much love,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
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