I carve YOUR name in my heart; PERMANENT.

1st june. a date that i'll remember till life depart from me. have you ever woke up from your beauty sleep and wish that one day, you will be perfect? i do. i always do. today was one of my worst and humiliating day of my entire life. i wished that i was way back in secondary school where life was much more pleasent, away from those wicked people. i hate myself. i hate me.

It was calculus mathematics and its MR KUAN KOH tutorial class. i was a bit frustrated before his fcuking lesson starts. my eyes irritates so much that it was red like an internal bleeding. i was scared if there's infection. thus, i removed them and i was like a blind mouse. all i see was shadows. so, went to MR KUAN KOH class and was quite happy on that time without any mood swings. but, i was totally pissed off when he humiliates me in front of my class and everybody was like laughing their lungs out loud. even my three clocest who i guess were my friends laughed. on that second, i feel my world were crashing and i feel like i am naked without any strings. i feel like i have lost my sense of dignity and i felt really humiliated. i tried to hold back my tears but it was too hard. so, i quickly packed my things and just go off from the class ignoring the people around me. all i can see was the word " embarassed ". in my whole entire life, no one has ever humiliate me in front of a crowd. true friends will know my feelings and will not pissed me off. when i thought my friends will stand by me, i was wrong. guess, i will just pretend that everything's okay and pretend to force a fake smile in front of them. i just want to be back in secondary school where my true friends can understand my sensitive feelings. i miss farah, ai'in, shiela, fatin, shafizah, erika, hidayu. those important people in my life. i hope i can bury my sorrows behind and wake up the next morning, finding myself a cinderella. i can't smile like i used to right now. after today, people will see the other side of me. i will not be the same umairah. here i come aneroxia.when i taught i has successfully put you behind, i was wrong. people make me change. people make me choose you back. i will be back to you soon... i <3 you aneroxia.

rejected his calls. his a nuisance. i just need a break up and strings will be loosen a bit. urgh, i just need some prozac and die. daa buy!

sincerely,
umairah.

Make me yours tonight, Let me die in your arms;
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